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I just told you that it's okay for you to talk to me about whatever.

Like, if I don't want to, I can just tell you.

[ Okay mostly. Usually she's quite the people-pleaser, but. Well, she thinks she can actually keep her end of that this time. Like she doesn't particularly want to talk about Aunamee. Or excessive murder. Or stuff like that. ]

I didn't know that extended to whenever, too. If you could tell me your honest feelings about things, that would be a big help to me, though. Thanks.

I think I can handle that.
I'd ask for the same but you seem like a really honest kid.

Zack hates liars, and I've accepted who I am now. I don't have a reason to lie.

...Actually, I know a lot of people that hate liars...

[ People that hate liars... ]

Is your dad one of them?

Yes.

Are you going to be able to lie to him if he mentions me?

What are you worried he'll ask me?

If you've spoken to me. If you know where I am.

Are those things I have to lie about? I've spoken to you. I don't know where you are. It's no more and no less than that.

I guess on a technical sense that's true.

You said something before about not letting him know we were talking, though. That it might make him try and push a fight or something.

If he asks, he asks. You have to solve the problem that's in front of you to survive. It would have be better before if he didn't ask if we've spoken because I didn't want him to know I was interested in who you were just because he was. He would have paid more attention to you to try and control my feelings. It probably would have worked.

I don't know why he's interested. I don't know if it matters to me anymore. We're not the same even if you aren't "normal" either. The reason I wanted to talk to you this time was something I decided on my own. If that makes him mad at anyone, it should be me for doing something unexpected, and he won't hurt me. You don't have to worry, Miss Riley. If I'm right, you're not in any more or less danger than before.

[ ...But, ultimately, she's almost surprised, because what's she's really worried about is— ]

Are you sure he won't hurt you? Absolutely sure?

I trust him. That's what I decided when I wished for him to be my daddy.

[If he wants to be perfect, he won't try to kill her, at least. He won't be like her last father.]

Even if he breaks that trust...it's difficult to hurt a slime. It's pretty amazing how durable this body is.

[ Riley still doesn't like it.

She doesn't like it even more than before. That she's already thought about what happens if he does hurt her... ]

Tell me if he does.
I mean, if you want to.
That's not the sort of thing someone should go through alone.

If that's what you want.

...Miss Riley, if that's the case why would someone get mad when you offered to listen?

[ Oh, uh. ]

Because sometimes the world doesn't work like it should.
Sometimes people get mad for reasons that don't make sense in retrospect.
Sometimes you don't have anyone to listen.

Okay. I

[She's not sure, really. It takes her a minute to get back to typing.]

Thank you. I think I understand. I thought maybe I did it wrong, but it sounds like it isn't something someone "normal" can always do either.

Did someone get mad at you when you offered?

I thought maybe if I listened to her, Mom would listen to me, but asking only made her more upset. I had to go upstairs.

Oh.

Your mom back home, before all this, you mean.

And she got mad at you just for asking? Your own mother did?

[ Oh. Oh, no. Well.

Riley will now die for you! ]

Edited 2021-08-10 02:42 (UTC)

I don't know how long they had been fighting before that, but she was already pretty mad when I got home. It's just...I was trying to make sure they wouldn't be angry again later by doing something without permission. It would have been better if we'd all listened to each other, right?

So that's why...it didn't make a lot of sense to me. Asking more then would have meant I wasn't listening to what she told me to do. That's why I never found out.

[ At ten years old, Riley comes home to tell her parents how much fun she had at Cairo's, to tell them how good she's doing in speech therapy, but she opens the door to barely contained screaming.

She stands there in shock because they never fought like that before. Not when her brother lived here. She tries to say something, but her mom snaps at her. "I need you to not be here, Riley."

Oh. ]

Your mom wasn't making sense to anyone. You were trying to do the right thing, Rachel. You didn't deserve her getting mad at you.

[It takes Ray a while to get done turning the words over in her head.]

Okay.

[It wasn't like it mattered much now, anyway.]

[ For a moment, Riley worries she's scared her off. They're not words she thinks she could accept so easily, after all. She breathes a sigh of relief when a response does come, however short. ]

If you have other questions about that kind of thing, I can try and answer them.
I'm not very good at it. But just if you're interested.

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