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[ Trust him? The answer is implicit, unshakeable. As she looks at him, she doesn't see a man she met five months ago in a dingy dirt cell underground; no, she sees one who's always protected her. She sees safe and loved and home. She sees what she's always wanted, what she's desperate to use to paint over her childhood of neglect and insecurity.

This is the man who taught her to cook. The man who watched her play at the park. The man for whom she, unwaveringly—

Riley opens her mouth to answer, but...that chokes her. When she closes her eyes, she sees him laid out in front of her, eyes sparkling. Around her the air sets in, hot and sticky, like she can still smell his blood, the blood that sank into her skirt and skin as she kneeled in his jail cell for hours upon hours.

The flash of worry and fear that crosses her face lasts but a moment. Then, she manages to give a quick nod with a wet little gulp of affirmation. ]

Mm- mmhm. [ Another nod, fervent. ] Mm- y- yes.

[He sees it. Whether she's trying to hide it and failing, or that she wants him to see it, he does. The swallow, inaudible to ears not heightened but seen in the way her jaw tightens and her shoulders inch towards her ears. It's in tight lips and knit brows and eyes that plead to look away, to not stare at the gaping wound just opened up front of him.

But Eridanus can't look away, he can't pretend like Riley is so used to the adults in her life doing. How many centuries had he pretended, as if out of sight out of mind actually worked.

The way he grabs her by shoulders that feel impossibly small and weak (but trying) is firm. The way his gaze pleads with hers to not brush him away but let him in as his lips part. It's that moment of every parent's life. The make it or break it.]

What's wrong, Riley? [Eridanus asks, voice gentle but coaxing. Moments before he told her she could tell him anything, and that includes right now,] what's bothering you?

[ That look. She can't remember ever seeing it. Not on the faces of her parents, or teachers, or...even in that other life. That Riley was a good, sweet girl, one who hadn't been turned away by her family for whatever painful reason, one who hadn't given into the dark whispers in her mind. She wonders if the only reason that girl had done what she'd done was because this Riley, the liar, had slipped through, and—

This isn't the sort of attention she's used to receiving. She can't look away, even though she wants to. If she tells him, everything comes crashing down. If she tells him, any fantasy she wants to cultivate shatters. If she tells him... ]

I... [ Tears pool at the corners of her avian eyes. ] Af- after...you were... I...

[ Everything in her screams to stop. But...she trusts him. ]

A- Aunamee, he...

[Aunamee?

Eridanus's eyes widen, along with the way his grip unconsciously tightens on Riley's shoulder. Ariel is Aunamee. He should've known. It's all she has to say, all she has to show him. How foolish he was to think the mere presence of a face could mask that same cloying voice—and he had fallen right into it like a fly to a honeyed trap.

His grip relaxes before it can hurt her, and instead curls around Riley's nape to comfort her.]

It's okay, sweetheart. Take your time.

[He keeps his tone even, comforting. He has to force down the bile that rises in his throat, and ignore the fury that sears through his veins and threatens to rupture through his skin.

For Riley, he tells himself. He must be strong for when she isn't.]

Did Aunamee hurt you? Threaten you? Tell me.

[ Her head shakes, almost imperceptibly. No. No, it's not that. It's— ]

I killed him.

[ The words stick in her throat, leaving them heavy and low. At the same time, they're soft, fragile, like she is, like they'll break. Just three words, and yet she's terrified to let them out. ]

[Seething anger like the darkening ocean, suddenly clears as if the parting of overhead clouds shines the everlasting sun on them. Eridanus' tail wags, and the smile that spreads wide across his features is nothing short of pleased.]

Ha! [He huffs, as if the murder was a triumph committed by his own hand,] I'm so very proud of you, Riley! That worm had it coming.

[And then his strong arms are wrapped around her once more, pulling Riley off of the ground with a warm hug.]

You must've been so terrified, my dear. Thank you for avenging me.

[ And Riley? She's just confused.

All at once, he's cheering and smiling. He's lifting her off the ground, and she's too stunned to do anything but go limp like a ragdoll. ]

You— But, I— I...killed him, isn't that- why are you...?

Riley.

[Eridanus' tone firms up, and when he pulls back, the way he lifts her in the air is not unlike the way one would hold a cat during a scolding.]

Aunamee is a serial killer. While that world no longer exists, you did what a justice system could not. What if he was released? Allowed to continue on his bloody path?

[A man who is always left to take, and take, and take needs to be knocked down once in awhile.]

You did that world a great service, but now you must be careful. If anything seems out of the ordinary, if Aunamee dares to show his face near you, I need you to fly away immediately. Come get me. Lucius and I will handle him for you.

[ But...that's bad, right? Isn't it bad, that she killed someone? That's what countless sleepless nights tried to tell her, what the hissing voice in the back of her head said. It's why she had to keep it locked up. Keep it from everyone. ]

The police, they... They caught him, but I... [ Riley doesn't process, doesn't understand. She'd spent hours in that cell, trying to understand what lead her there, the thoughts the desires. Now, she's slowly realizing... No one she's ever killed before has come after her for revenge.

Huh. ]

...You think...he's going to try to...to...

[ A serial killer. And he remembered her. ]

He's a spiteful little worm, [Eridanus clicks his tongue as he lowers Riley to the floor, careful of her footing before he removes the support of his hands beneath her arms.] I'm sure he already bears somewhat of a grudge against me for maiming him in February.

[It's the only part of that memory he's fond of, naturally. Just the reminiscing of seeing Aunamee made to kneel by the strike to his knee has Eridanus smiling impishly behind the guard of his opal maw. But that's neither here nor there—the fear in Riley's eyes is plain to him, and his priority should be abating that.]

While I cannot guarantee he will or won't, I would not put it past him. That is why it's imperative that you tell me if and when he seeks retaliation.

[His hands rest upon her shoulders once more, giving them an assuring squeeze as they do.]

M- maimi—

[ There is a part of her that wants to know about this, on some level. However, that part is not very big, so she smothers it easily.

If and when... Riley quietly nods. Some of the fear abates, from Eridanus' warm touch. But she keeps picturing the way Aunamee looked at her, when he remembered. ]

...Thank you. I'm not...really...not about to try and...do that on my own again.

[Eridanus smooths his hands over the feathers that crest the slope of her shoulders, patting down the ones that have ruffled in a way that's reminiscent of a parent wiping dirt off of their child's face. Riley is worried, and rightly so, but his one hope is that she believes him when he says that she isn't alone.]

You won't have to, you have me, my sweet girl.

[He casts a smile down upon her, warm and fond.]

If Aunamee dares to harm a single feather on your head, death will be too merciful for the likes of him.

[ This shouldn't be so reassuring. She's not entirely ignorant, she can put two and two together. Especially when thinking back on what she'd already been suspecting, with Eridanus and Lucius. The man she's willingly making her father, he has some...intimate knowledge with hurting others. Perhaps he enjoys it.

Perhaps, but. He affectionately straightens out her feathers. He kindly smiles at her. She's hungered for this, for so long that that's what matters most to her, that this is sincere. Riley drinks the moment in, despite it all, and manages to shakily return his smile. ]

You'll...take care of me.

[ It's enough to chase away the budding worries about her own character.

That, and a small bunch of fur brushing up against her leg; Maple's come to check out the commotion, it seems. ]

[Eridanus' smile doesn't dim with her words and, affectionately, he lifts a finger to tip her chin up to him. He basks in the nervous glow of her smile, taking it for now, considering she's still likely shaken up with everything that's happened. He had days to mend those shattered thoughts, his mind broken, where as she has had mere hours.]

I will take care of you, Sunshine. [He pulls his talon from her chin, instead cupping her cheek in the gentle palm of his opaline hand,] from the moment you were born, until the very last star in the galaxy burns out, I will watch over and protect you — that, I promise.

[In that moment, his attention is wholly on Riley, until he feels the gentle brush of Maple at his ankle. Eridanus lowers himself from his tip-toed height, then crouches down to his haunches to run gentle claws along the kitten's spine.]

He's much bigger than when I last saw him.

[At Hestia's. Not... in that other world.]

[ His hand is so warm. Memories from the other world spin around her, slotting in over time after time of broken promises, halfhearted reassurances, or just plain old disinterest. Forever. He's going to protect her forever. For a moment, Riley's lost in bliss, grinning like a child through tears.

And then Maple pulls Eridanus' attention away, leaving her to collect herself. When she runs her knuckle over her eye to keep herself from crying again, for once it's not rough and punishing. ]

Y- yeah. Yeah, he's. He's become...a real troublemaker.

[ Even though she says this, Maple just seems happy to rub against Eridanus, purring joyfully. ]

I suppose that's simply another thing shared between those worlds.

[He's slowly, slowly becoming less bitter about it. Some aspects still bubble up through him like an insidious black mire—thoughts of his own naivety, of how easily he had fallen victim to Aunamee, of being separated from Lucius and his children—but here, like this, it's starting to feel... okay. He's not separated from his family, he tells himself, as his gaze turns from Maple and up towards Riley instead.

Eridanus rises again, scooping Maple up with him when he straightens. His claws continue to curl gently against his little furred chin, and though he wouldn't admit it aloud, he's become quite the cat-patting expert.]

You know, I still have Mr. Bigglesworth, [he smiles down at her,] you should come visit him sometime. I'm sure he'd love you just the same as he did before.

[ Maple loves his owner, but he's quickly finding he's growing big enough that it's hard to snuggle into her completely without his tail or legs hanging out of her grasp. Big and burly Eridanus, however, is very easy to cuddle into. He can stretch out his full length and still be happily contained.

He approves, essentially, and he makes that very well known with how loud he's purring. The whole thing has Riley extra giddy. ]

Really? You do? Oh, I'd... I'd love that, if— [ A bit of a sheepish look. ] I...don't suppose you live anywhere near the...the house, the...other one, so...I definitely don't know...where to go, exactly.

[Unfortunately for Riley, Eridanus does not live in a nice, cookie-cutter home with a groomed lawn and beautiful rose bushes in the front yard. While the house isn't dilapidated, it certainly isn't as cared for as it would be if its homeowners knew how to manage a house. Once more, it's unfortunate that the homeowners are both men who are much more used to having servants that do everything for them.

But Eridanus tells Riley none of this, as those are all irrelevant details that won't be seen until she actually visits. So instead, he lets a smile spread across his face again.]

No, my dear, I live in Djavulenstad. It's a bit of a travel, but not impossible, especially since you have wings. So long as the city's watch knows you are visiting me, you should be able to get in and out fairly easy.

[He idly continues to pet Maple as he speaks.]

I must warn you, though — the home is shared with Lucius.

[ Djavulenstad... She's heard of it. And, more recently, she's had quite a few new memories about it shoved into her head. The little crime city. It's more than a little disorienting to think of it from the perspective of the girl who grew up in that other Ryslig, thinking about her rule-following father living there.

However... There's quite a few things that don't line up with that lifetime. Particularly— ]

Lucius... [ Her smile falters for a moment. ] Luc. He was Luc, right? That...explains a few things.

[Eridanus nods along, confirming her train of thought.]

I would advise that you do not call him Luc to his face, he is very particular about maintaining that the person within that other realm is not him.

[For reasons not explicitly told to him of course; but Eridanus is observant, and at times the thin veil between them would lift, offering kernels of truth. That Lucius has lapses in his identity, that he's angered when reality warps around him. Perhaps there's something deeper there, some dark truth to his power that makes him feel as if he treads on unsteady ground.

But that's neither confirmed, nor something Eridanus would tell Riley.]

The relationship between he and I was different there than in reality. I am simply his vassal and he is my lord, so do not worry overmuch about it.

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[ ...Yes, Riley thinks, it makes sense that someone so old wouldn't want to be...that, if she remembers their conversation correctly— but Eridanus' assertion confuses her, and her feathered ears perk up just slightly. ]

Just... But... He's the one you were talking about before, right? At...um, at the...museum? The person...you want to leave with?

[ From that, Riley had gotten the impression their relationship was romantic in nature. Between that and her conversation with Luc in the other world, well... ]

Yes, and I still plan to leave with him one day, [Eridanus says, matter-of-factly,] after all, a vassal without his lord is nothing, Riley.

[He lofts a brow at her, like this should be easy to understand.]

You are free to come with us, my dear, though I must admit... you have a fighting spirit, but I do not think you would fare well in a warzone.

[ She knows little about them, lords and vassals, so she's not about to presume about someone else's relationship, even though it strikes her as...off. What she can presume, though... ]

I... [ Slowly, almost a little pained, she shakes her head. ] It...doesn't sound like...something I'd take to, from what he said about it.

[ Just minutes ago, he'd promised forever...but even that's a fantasy. Until the stars burned out... Riley never expects anyone to choose her first, and that's... She knows that. Especially in a place like this, where all of them have their separate lives to return to. Still, she'd let herself get a bit caught up in it; eighteen or not, she's still in many ways a child, after all.

So, it stings. Just a little. ]

I figured as much.

[Eridanus returns, sounding so much more apathetic to it—but in his mind, the moment he figures the way out of this world, he will be able to return to it.]

That is why I was already planning to come visit you, my dear. We may be trapped like this now, but I am an incredibly powerful Archmage. Once it is returned to me, I will have the ability to create portals and travel freely.

[He smiles at her as he steps closer. Eridanus is not ignorant to the pain that comes with her jumps to conclusions, and so he won't chastise her for thinking he would be like all the others. In his mind, he can have room for his duties to Lucius and Riley, both.]

[ Visit her?

This comes so out of left field for her that Riley can't hold back her surprise. Never once has she been the priority, so she assumed... And yet— ]

You... [ Her lower lip quivers. ] You'll really be able t- to come and go?

[ That big empty house. It doesn't have to be so empty. ]

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