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[isawallflower]

WELCOME TO YOUR PRIVATE CHANNEL, CHEERYCHERRY. FOR SECURE COMMUNICATION, USE 019.46.820.17 *** CHEERYCHERRY has joined 019.46.820.17 <CHEERYCHERRY> It's Riley! <CHEERYCHERRY> Please leave a message! <CHEERYCHERRY> Please be someone with their priorities sorted out properly!

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<CheeryCherry>

[isawallflower]

[ And now her response goes through immediately. ]

oh no i didn't mean anything like that, just that they didnt hit me i wasn't trying to say anything more or something sorry about that
not that you should feel bad for suggesting it or anything after all it was my misunderstanding i worded that wrong

[ Admittedly, her healing arm makes it hard to type, which could be why all of this is rushed and...very unlike her usual texting habits. But. Both of them probably know that's not true. ]


I don't know what i'm saying anymore
can you ignore all that?

<harmonia>

[digiorno]

[Oh, Riley.]

no. sorry. but we can stop talking about it if you want to.

<CheeryCherry>

[isawallflower]

I'm sorry.
Please don't worry about me!!
I didn't mean to divert the conversation.

<harmonia>

[digiorno]

you didn't. i'm not sure what else i would even say about it. it's dealt with. they mean nothing to me.

the people i've met here who are my family are on the whole kind and understanding people. i really don't know why they want anything to do with me, if i'm being honest, but it seems like a foregone conclusion in their minds. do you ever feel a — an almost cultural divide from people who think like that? like it's normal to react that way?

[That's. A little bit of an unfair question, snuck in at the end there. A little underhanded. If not a trap, then close to it.]

<CheeryCherry>

[isawallflower]

[ It's such an unfair question. But. Riley doesn't want to freak out again. ]

Yes, sometimes.
I want to keep the peace often but it feels a little strange, like
I want to know what they want from me, mostly.

<harmonia>

[digiorno]

that’s exactly it. like i’m waiting for something bad to happen, and even if it never does i somehow can’t stop expecting it. which isn’t fair in a lot of cases. there are genuinely good people out there, supposedly, but.

[He doesn’t send a shrug emoji because he doesn’t know how, but the sense of shrug emoji is strong.]

every time i can’t help but think, what’s the catch?

<CheeryCherry>

[isawallflower]

There are good people.
A lot of good people.
But things just don't turn out right sometimes.

Sometimes it just feels like it's because something went wrong.

[ Because I did something wrong. She doesn't say that. ]

<harmonia>

[digiorno]

yes. i understand what you mean, i think.

[He thinks about the story he told her, about the dog. Strange that it already feels so relevant.]

by conventional standards, i'm a very bad person. maybe that's why i'm so bad at letting people go. i don't know.

[Yes, he does. It's the whole desperately-lonely-situation. He thinks — expects — that Riley already understands this.]

<CheeryCherry>

[isawallflower]

I don't think you're a bad person.

[ Very simple, to the point. If he's a bad person, after all, then...so is she. And she doesn't want to— she doesn't think she's a bad person. ]