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[He's quiet for a bit, digesting this. It . . . he's not sure "helps" is the right word. It makes some kind of a difference, some tectonic shift under his skin, the bits and pieces that make him up doing some delicate restructuring dance. But it doesn't feel better or worse, really. Just new.]

you're right.

it's just that i want things to be better but i don't really deserve to want that. that's what makes it hard. and i'm not good at doing nothing.

[ A moment. She debates even bringing this up. But— ]

I get not thinking you deserve it.
I really do.
I think I'd feel the same if any of them showed up
The rest of my team I mean.

[ It would be worst, if it were Chess or Farrah. Clark would be pretty bad too, after the months she spent a little unsure if she was responsible for him too or not. But none of the others would be easy. Not Kate, not Annleigh. Not Reese, not Eva. And— god, not Mattie. ]

But I still think it's okay to want it to be better.
Maybe I'm biased.
But I don't like when you're hurt.

Edited (icon) 2022-02-05 06:22 (UTC)

[Hm.]

i don't like when you're hurt, either. so maybe we're both biased.

[After all, there . . . are more than a few people who think both of them don't deserve better.]

does that mean i have to be a good example so if they show up you don't sabotage yourself?

(i'm mostly joking don't be mad)

I mean if they showed up here I would avoid them at all costs because I don't think they'd even want to look at me and I think that's a little fair?

Also I would not be living in the same house as them, that's a little different
I know Hill House is like a MANSION but you share a kitchen and a front door, so it counts.

it would be wrong not to.

if anyone was going to leave it should be me.

No! No that is not the point I am making Giorno and I'm sure your friends don't want you to leave I'm just saying
You don't have to do anything you don't want to.
Or that'll make you sad.

i'm not GOING to leave

i'm just explaining why i want to live in the same place as him. these people were his home years before they ever met me. i know i have a right to be here, and i won't leave, but i'd rather share the space and be uncomfortable than pretend i have more right than he does.

Ok it just seems like something you'd do so I had to be sure.
You deserve a home too.

How long has he been here for? Was he in the last group of arrivals?

that's
fair. but i'm not

yes. with the bugs. i don't think he knew
i don't know
it was strange. it was really strange.
i didn't know how to help him and i still don't.

Don't think he knew what?

how to deal with me

[ There's a small, small pause. ]

I think he might have to figure that part out himself.
Maybe the gift is him trying to
Even though it doesn't make sense.

i

maybe

but that makes it seem like there's not anything i can do to fix it

[ There's a beat. A moment. ]

I know you're not going to like this
but I think that's because all you can really do is give him space.

Because what he doesn't know what to do is deal with you and you can't

you don't have to be fixed giorno.

you're right, i hate that.

[That's his least favorite answer, actually.]

i can give him space. i've been doing that. i can keep doing it forever, really. i just thought this might mean something, but if it doesn't, if i have to keep waiting, that's that.

I don't know if it doesn't.
It really might. I think it does!

I just can't say what that is.
I'm sorry. I wish I could give you more.

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