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WELCOME TO YOUR PRIVATE CHANNEL, CHEERYCHERRY. FOR SECURE COMMUNICATION, USE 019.46.820.17 * CHEERYCHERRY has joined 019.46.820.17 <CHEERYCHERRY> It's Riley! <CHEERYCHERRY> Please leave a message! <CHEERYCHERRY>** Please be someone with their priorities sorted out properly!

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[...squints at this reply and tries very hard not to judge Riley too much...]

There isn't a place for someone like me in that world. The closest was where I met Zack, and we left it together. If I didn't die, I probably would have spent my life alone in a facility taking medicine that wouldn't cure me and thinking about killing myself.

[ please judge her rachel. please. ]

Someone should've tried to make a place for you there
A real one, somewhere you could feel safe.

It's not fair that death was your only option.

...People did try. Dr. Danny built me something just like my house so I could live with him instead. He brought me anything and everything. Toys, food, clothes, books... But that isn't what I wanted. Later there was a boy that made me a beautiful headstone. I couldn't accept that either.

My death wasn't sad or ugly, Miss Riley. It was the happiest I'd ever felt in my life. Dying that way... It was exactly what I wanted and made me feel more accepted than any gift ever could. Even if "my perfect home" existed, it wouldn't have made me happier than that moment.

[ They should've tried harder she types but then deletes. They should've listened to what you wanted she tries.

But... Rachel's telling her what she wanted, and Riley's flat-out refusing it. She's talking around it.

This doesn't feel right. But she doesn't feel equipped for it, either. She wishes...Rachel had more people—anyone, really—before she'd gotten to that point. ]

Do you still want that here?
To die?

It's a little more complicated here, since Miss Fog brings people back to life. I still feel like someone that doesn't deserve to live, so I do still want to die...but the one I really want to kill me isn't here. More than that, dying here means that I could lose the precious memories I was able to make. I don't want to forget those things.

Because of that, I've decided to live. I won't die and I won't hide who I am.

[ Like she doesn't deserve to live... Because she killed her father? Because of what she did after? It breaks her heart. She needed help. She needed something to work, something to...

Riley keeps looking at that. She would've spent her life in a facility taking medicine that wouldn't cure her and thinking about killing herself. Not living, just existing. Is...that what Riley has waiting for her? Life locked up somewhere until she can't take it anymore?

She can't help Rachel. She can't even help herself. ]

I'm glad.
I don't want you to die or lose memories.
You aren't like other people, sure.
But you're still you.

Thank you, Miss Riley. I'm sorry that we can understand each other in a lot of ways, but I'm glad for it! Getting to talk to someone about these things sometimes is pretty fun.

[ ...Oh. ]

You know
You can just call me Riley.
I think after all this, we're friends. Right?

[ Maybe...there is something she can do for Rachel, after all. ]

[Hm?

Hm??? Friends? With her?

...]

I think I'd like that, Riley.

[Friends...!]

[ She's a sweet girl. Strange, but so's Riley herself. And... She really never thought she'd find someone who understood her in this way.

Rachel's right. It is nice. ]

You wanna hear about some more weird cold cases?

Yes!

Great! Let's start with another Australian case, the Mystery of the Somerton Man...

[ It's weird. It's morbid. But they're having a good time. And that's all that matters. ]

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< r.gardner > you ever go to write warnings but instead end up sighing, medical and suicide stuff ig

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<CheeryCherry> cw we are just gonna be talking about suicide for awhile now

< r.gardner > ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ ray staple

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