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[peccatore]

Oh


I'm sorry.

Does he still work there?

[isawallflower]

[ There’s a huge amount of “yeah, what the fuck do you say to that” that makes her feel a little bad for just dropping it on him, but Riley’s also so over doctors right now that it’s not enough to make her really regret it. ]

No. He’s gone. Not just from the clinic but from the peninsula.
But I imagine you can understanding my hesitance.
There’s only one person I trust who works at the clinic and that’s because I personally know him.
Everyone else I won’t risk. Not again.

[peccatore]

I understand.
I'm not sure where else you might be able to go, though.
I doubt they sell these without a prescription, and
Frankly I'd feel more comfortable knowing they're what you need.

[isawallflower]

[ She tenses up, again. ]

I don't know what I need so I don't really know how anyone else could


Sorry, I haven't decided
I don't know what I'm going to do with all of this yet.

[peccatore]

That's okay.
I understand.

[How many times has he said this already? But he means it, really.]

Take your time, okay?
If you need anything, you know where to find me.

I'm sorry if that was a little too much all at once.

[isawallflower]

[ For a long few moments, Riley stares at the response. It doesn’t feel like he’s just saying that. It doesn’t…feel like he’s patronizing her. It feels like…maybe he can understand.

But she’s so scared. Scared of herself, of other people, of the idea that she can’t get better—and the idea that she can. What “better” really is. ]

No it’s okay.
I sort of said a lot too.


Thanks.
For not thinking I’m crazy.

[peccatore]

[...]

If I thought less of someone for being "crazy"
I'd be a hypocrite, now wouldn't I?

[Never mind that he DOES think less of himself now. That's not the point.]

[isawallflower]

There's a lot of hypocrites in the world.

[ lbr she's one of them— ]

This just isn't the kind of thing people talked about back home.

[peccatore]

Don't worry about that.
It's not exactly "normal" over where I was from either.

[isawallflower]

[ Riley doesn't really know what to say to that. Or to any of this. She's been running on fumes for some time now.

So. ]

Okay.
I'll try.

Goodbye Mr. Evangelisti.

[peccatore]

Talk to you some other time, Riley.

[Or so he hopes.]