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[isawallflower]

[ ... ]

I know you said you didn't want to see anyone, so it's fine if the answer's no. But I still want to ask.

Do you want to come over? I have some pasta I can cook and it probably won't be that good honestly? But it's something I usually do with Steve when one of us is feeling down so

I don't know.

It just feels like I should ask.

cw emeto, panic attack

[digiorno]

[It takes him a long time to respond to this. Because, for a while, he just breaks. This is his limit, somehow. For whatever reason, this specific thing is too much. So for a little while, he can't respond, because he's hyperventilating so hard he almost throws up.]

[When he does respond, it's about half an hour later.]

he told me. back in july

i can't do that riley
i can't do the thing that you do together
that's not for me

[isawallflower]

[ Oh no. When the response doesn't come immediately, she knows...something's wrong. At first she's relieved to see something, but—

Oh, she messed up, didn't she? ]

I'm sorry

I'm sorry, I didn't mean to overstep, I just thought

you're family too
I don't know how else to comfort family

[digiorno]

i know

i know, you didn't do anything wrong i just


it's already been so long i'm scared if i do something wrong he won't come back

[isawallflower]

he'll come back

they always come back
he has to come back

[digiorno]

i know that. that's true. that's what atem said too and i know it's true

i just can't

[—tell her. He can't tell her. Because if he tells her then even though she wasn't there it'll be in her head too, dreams of cold flesh blind eyes no pulse. That was his fault. His fault. Didn't get there in time, his fault, if he'd just gone sooner, if he'd checked in earlier, if if if if if—]

explain it

it's like superstition. like did you know four is bad luck? it's like that
so
so maybe we can do something else

[isawallflower]

okay
okay, we'll do something different
we'll make a different food
what do you want?
anything.

[digiorno]

pizza?

i don't know how to make it but i can bring some
cairo likes pizza so i can bring two
or crusts
the premade ones

[isawallflower]

[ ...A small, teary smile. ]

i won't tell anyone the crusts are premade.
we can learn how to make it together, okay?
i can go out for toppings. i'll get everything.

[digiorno]

thanks
i have a reputation to maintain

[ah a joke]

i'll teach you all the pizza rules and then we can break them together

[isawallflower]

okay.
your rules.

i'll defer to the expert.

[ She thinks but doesn't say, when Steve gets back...they can combine the two traditions. Spaghetti and pizza. It sounds nice. ]