[He doesn't know if it would help, and he wouldn't want to put more on her. But he believes that she'd help him. He believes her.]
[She says he can tell her anything, and that's true too. He could tell her what he did that might get him fired, and she'd probably understand. He could tell her about Steve or Trish or Mista or the nightmares. He could tell her anything. He wants to. But after holding so many secrets he doesn't know which one to unburden right now. The balance is so precarious. The wrong choice could send him spiraling.]
i was really happy at the beginning of july, you know. i felt all right. even with so much happening and so much uncertain. everything's fallen apart so quickly. i wish i was stronger. i used to be able to pretend better than this.
is it a good thing that i don't pretend as much anymore? i thought it was. normal people don't hide all the time.
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[He doesn't know if it would help, and he wouldn't want to put more on her. But he believes that she'd help him. He believes her.]
[She says he can tell her anything, and that's true too. He could tell her what he did that might get him fired, and she'd probably understand. He could tell her about Steve or Trish or Mista or the nightmares. He could tell her anything. He wants to. But after holding so many secrets he doesn't know which one to unburden right now. The balance is so precarious. The wrong choice could send him spiraling.]
i was really happy at the beginning of july, you know. i felt all right. even with so much happening and so much uncertain. everything's fallen apart so quickly. i wish i was stronger. i used to be able to pretend better than this.
is it a good thing that i don't pretend as much anymore? i thought it was. normal people don't hide all the time.