It’s impossible to shake it. She’s done horrible things. Has been a horrible person. In her attempts to make a difference, she’s made everything worse, again and again and again. She’s finally recognized her faults and flaws, and now they will not and cannot be hidden away again. They’re a big bright flashing sign for the world to see, because they’re a big bright flashing sign for her to see, and she’s tired, tired of being the only one to look at it. It was there, and she couldn’t keep her eyes from being drawn to it every day.
Riley needs help. Riley needs punishment. Both are, for her, true. At war. A contradiction she can’t reconcile.
Is she allowed? Will she get in trouble for it?
She can’t stop thinking it. Can’t.
Again she blinks back tears. Again, she can’t— think, can’t find the words to say. ]
Oh. [ So small, so vulnerable. ] …Oh- okay. Okay.
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It’s impossible to shake it. She’s done horrible things. Has been a horrible person. In her attempts to make a difference, she’s made everything worse, again and again and again. She’s finally recognized her faults and flaws, and now they will not and cannot be hidden away again. They’re a big bright flashing sign for the world to see, because they’re a big bright flashing sign for her to see, and she’s tired, tired of being the only one to look at it. It was there, and she couldn’t keep her eyes from being drawn to it every day.
Riley needs help. Riley needs punishment. Both are, for her, true. At war. A contradiction she can’t reconcile.
Is she allowed? Will she get in trouble for it?
She can’t stop thinking it. Can’t.
Again she blinks back tears. Again, she can’t— think, can’t find the words to say. ]
Oh. [ So small, so vulnerable. ] …Oh- okay. Okay.
[ She’s allowed. Somehow, she’s allowed. ]