[Right... Thinking that sort of thing definitely isn't normal, and even if Riley has her own issues, she still has normal people thoughts and feelings about things. She's a halfway point, maybe.]
No. It isn't something I'm used to either even if I've thought about it. It was something I wanted... I wanted to be desired in both life and death. I don't think I could have ever had that with my parents. Not even in my fantasies... There was someone after who provided anything I asked for and more, but nothing he did was really for me, I think. He wanted "me", but one he wanted and not the "me" that was my true self. He never felt like my ideal family.
But I was able to get close. What's more amazing than someone who would die for you is someone who refuses to die so that he has the chance to fulfill your wish himself. My most precious person is both.
< r.gardner >
No. It isn't something I'm used to either even if I've thought about it. It was something I wanted... I wanted to be desired in both life and death. I don't think I could have ever had that with my parents. Not even in my fantasies... There was someone after who provided anything I asked for and more, but nothing he did was really for me, I think. He wanted "me", but one he wanted and not the "me" that was my true self. He never felt like my ideal family.
But I was able to get close. What's more amazing than someone who would die for you is someone who refuses to die so that he has the chance to fulfill your wish himself. My most precious person is both.